Getting Nervous...

This week is my last official week at work and then I'll be setting off into my journey of becoming a student. I literally don't think I've ever had to deal with this level of nervousness and excitement all in one go. I'm so excited to be starting a new journey and adventure but also the worry that comes along with that. This will be the first time I have moved away from home, the first time where I will have had to solely rely on my own finances and also will have to be a fully fledged adult and do all sorts of adulty things.

Not only do I have to worry about keeping myself alive, but you also have the worries of 'will I enjoy this when I get there' 'what if the people I live with don't get on with me' 'what if I'm a giant wimp and start to freak out as soon as I arrive'. Just some mad thoughts of a rambling worrier. 

One way in which my anxiety likes to come out is to disrupt my sleep. I'll sometimes be waking up every hour on the hour. The only way I have managed to shut my brain off is to get a glass of water and then count sheep until I drift off again, and then repeat in another hour when my body decides to have another dream about leaving for University.

I have no tips for this type of worry. So far all I have managed to do is talk about it to those around me and remind myself that although this is a massive and scary adventure, EVERYBODY who I know that has been to university has come out with some of the best memories they have ever made and that is what is keeping me going. 

Also, whats the worst that could happen, I don't like it, I come home and I try something new.

It's late and this probably made very little sense but sometimes you just have to keep typing or talking. 

xxx

Frustrating Finance

So, the worst part about trying to get to university; STUDENT FINANCE. 

I remember hearing all my friends talk about trying to fill out the student finance forms and in my head I was just like ‘I’m sure it can’t be that difficult, it’s just one form’. But let me tell you, this is a whole new level of annoying. You have to fill in a request for student finance and then you have to get your parents to fill in there support information. And once you’ve sat there for a good hour and a half trying to find all of the correct information, you have to then send them evidence of the stuff they had asked for. This will take all of like 3 months and then you find out that they can’t offer you the full loan because of some rules that they haven’t previously made clear. Maybe it’s just a current frustration because the system doesn’t seem to be working for me right now but ughhh if I could pay for university outright then I would and that’s just to avoid speaking to student finance. 

A lazy day

If there is one thing that is needed every once in a while, it's a lazy day. I especially love lazy sundays. It gives a refreshing look at the week before going to work the next day. 

I love to stay in my pyjama's, catch up on the tv that i've missed during the week, and have a few too many cups of tea or hot chocolate through out the day. I think sundays are the best days to do this becuase when you get a food baby from sunday lunch it's great to be able to take a nap afterwards and not have to think about all the things you should be doing.

I also like to take these lazy days as a time to just chill out with my sister, with us both working full time jobs we don't see each other all week and so sundays are the perfect time to just sit around all day in each others company. No make up, pyjamas and beauty treatments all day long, who could ask for more.

I feel as though you should take one day out a week so you can destress, breathe and remind yourself that life is not so bad when you can take a deep breathe. 

Whats your favourite things to do on your lazy day?